Revelation?

When is the rubber going to hit the road?

I don’t understand why when I go to pray I have all of these weird crazy thoughts about how things work… I mean don’t I know God?

Like one of the things that comes to my head is God I need help or I need this… and I did this for you, so do this for me? I mean when do we move beyond this stuff?

When do we realize that when we stand in Christ God does not see our sin! We are perfect! And as much as He showers his blessings His son he desires to shower His blessing on us! I think the reason why we do not necessarily see it this way is because if he gave us everything that we want we would not be able to handle it. So he gives us only what we can handle in his love!

And in addition why does the revelation and the things we know about God seem so distant when we are faced with issues in life concerning our family, death, sickness ect. As an example what do you tell someone when they say where was God when my mom and dad where shot right in front of me… How do you answer that… Well that is a rhetorical question… but do you understand the level of what I am talking about. I desire to know God and to understand his ways at all times…

Though as I think about this I believe that this is Gods drawing us unto him. It is a recognition of our bankrupt state without Him. If we understood his ways at all times why would we need to pursue him more… I believe we will understand his ways more and more as we study his word and look unto him.

It is all about relationship, and everything he does is to draw us into greater relationship.

Jesus I love your words and your commands Come like a fire and consume my heart. Make me jealous for your name. Reveal yourself to me, reveal your ways for I am completely lost without you. I am at the end of myself. Come!